This book would not have existed without my best friends and support group. Casey Gregonen is my right arm, one of my first readers, my Gayle. Stella Shaffer is my bedrock, my absolute Samantha Jones/Charlotte combo. Rose Harding is the flower I breathe. Rachel Miller is my eternal Miranda who reminds me darkness is powerful and hot takes are okay. Shelby Everett is my NYC companion and fellow cynic. Alfredo Franco is the one good man I know. Nicholas Bon who reminded me less is more. Hiromi Yoshida for reminding me of the phrase "the artist as lover". Simon Defeo for telling me I could and should. To Milly Cai, Emma Maidenberg, Jenny Leigh, for bearing with me at the end of college when I said "I'm writing". Elizabeth Prichett-Montavon, for being a lighthouse in a world of pain and chaos. To Mary Luncsford and Josie Wenig for supporting my astrological aspirations. To Pat Stefaniak for letting me stay at his apartment one unbearably hot summer with a wild train crash. To Dr. Terri Francis, for teaching me. To my mom for letting me buy lobster and cry and to my dad for telling me I always thought I wasn't good enough, but I am. To my sister Jenna, for her infectious joy and to my sister Jessie for her love of family. To Kinzie Hoagland for reminding me writing a book is a big deal. To Alan Ruiz, Reilly Gallogly, and Marcia Lewis for being the fun I so desperately need and allowing me to be a mom. To Jared Allen for being my Christmas wanderer. To Mary Boo Anderson and Shy Watson for knowing talking about boys is important. To all of the trans poets and writers and thinkers I have yet to meet and who are already doing so much.
Joshua Byron is a nonbinary storyteller based in Bushwick. They have produced over nineteen film works including, most recently, Idle Cosmopolitan. Their films have screened at Sarah Lawrence, Bennington, Indiana University, the Indianapolis LGBT Film Festival, Life Hack, the Wrong Biennial, and Forge Mag Presents. Their writing has appeared in Glo Worm Press, Bushwicky Daily, Water Soup Press, and The Body Is Not An Apology. They love Oprah, rose soap, and melodramas.